Me Time

The older I get, the more I feel the need to focus on myself. In my younger days, I used to be a gossiper. I used to want to please everyone else. I used to care about my perception to those who loved me and hated me. I used to know what happened, when it happened, where it happened, who it happened to, and how it happened. I had to be in the loop. I used to. Keywords. Call it college life. Now, I realize that working on myself, my problems, my inner demons is and should always be top priority. If you have no direct link to the happiness in my life, you are of little or no importance. I don’t give a shit what you do. Not that I don’t like you, but fixing my problems is just way more important that discussing or worrying about yours. Your business is just that, YOUR BUSINESS. Just like my business is MY BUSINESS. I must note that it seems as tho most people who want you to stay out of their lives can’t seem to stay out of others lives. I guess the “Do unto others…” principle is somewhat null and void and the “Do as I say not as I do“ principle is way more popular. But to sum it all up. Do you. Learn from your mistakes. Fix your problems. Work on self. Because at the end of the day when you are done gossiping and worrying about everyone else, you have to deal with you. And dealing with YOU should be a 24 hour a day/7 days a week job not a part time one. Yeah… I have a lot more to say but… I’ll save it for another day…

Closet Doors

Closet doors. How many of us have them? Hmmm. I think about everybody. Those closet doors are the opening to the past and we attempt to stand in front of the door until everyone forgets the door or until everyone forgets what is behind it. However, please be aware that someone is always trying to catch you slipping so they can open your closet door and let the skeletons out. And you ask why? Well I can’t answer that question with complete accuracy but I can take an educated guess. May because what is in their closet is worse than what is in yours. So, with opening your closet door, you can only worry about closing a door that sometimes can never be shut. Maybe because opening your closet door makes them feel like they are a step ahead while they have set you two steps back. Some people always have to feel like they have the upper hand by any means necessary. Maybe because they can’t fathom the idea of you being able to live a productive life with your closet door being unexposed and never opened. Or maybe their closet door is never closed and they feel yours should be too. But for whatever reasons people choose to be vengeful always remember your closet door is the past. Nothing more. Nothing less. You can’t change it. You can only learn from it. You can’t control other people’s actions. You can only react to them. And your reaction determines your control. So just learn from your past, be proactive in the present, and focus on your future.